When I was a senior in high school, my English teacher had us all write our future selves letters, which she would then mail after our five-year reunion. Some of my classmates sent themselves money—after all, their 23 year old self might need that $20 more than their 18 year old self. Others sent mementos of that year: movie ticket stubs, pictures of high school events, and notes from friends.
I recently got my letter. Turns out, 18 year old Ju was much smarter than I remembered.
I asked me some difficult questions: Had I let myself fall in love yet? Did I still love my family? Did I maintain relationships with the people who had meant so much to me at one point in life? Did I have a career that I cared about and that inspired me?
Today, as I approach my 24th birthday, I feel like I’ve accomplished quite a bit. And yet, at the same time, so little.
I have a stable life: a great relationship, a fulfilling job, and challenging classes as I work toward my masters degree. But, I recently counted how much of my life goes toward the things I ‘have’ to do: to work, to working out (bleh), to sleeping, to doing chores and errands. After all of those were taken out, I had just 5% of my life to do the things that I wanted to do: to strengthen my relationship with my lover, to play with my dogs, to be artistic and creative.
As I thought about this and how depressing it is, I remembered the lyric of one of my favorite songs: Don’t ever let life pass you by.
Inspired to never let life pass me by, I created a list of thirty things I want to do before I turn thirty. They are dreams, desires, and things I’ve been putting off for too long. Some are about personal growth, some are about enjoying life, others are merely about accomplishment.
I hope that this blog (and anyone who may read it) will keep me accountable, always encouraging me to live life and to pursue happiness.